September the 3

So I haven't wrote in awhile cuz nothing really happen except that I Jazzlyn Preston have finally gotten over TBY. Also spongebob and archy didn't kiss again! Thank god! Cuz if they did i would have died! Lmao. I told Spongebob that I like Archy. But i don't think I do anymore but it's whatever. Lol.! Well sorry that I've been a wall for a few days but I'll write more tomorrow since its my BDAY.! Yay me.! Lmao!

August the 31

Yesterday I did what I said I was going to do and you know what it was hard but I did. Now I have another problem. I think I like someone else. Ooh and I found out that my friend that dis tht thing with Archy might have kissed again. Fml.!

August the 30

Today will determine what will happen for the rest of the year. Will I talk to my ex best friend and realize that what I feel is pure jealous and to get over it or make Archy a TBY part two. Lmao! I guess that's my answer. Swallow your pride Jazz and let it go. *breathes* Just do it. More later.

August the 29th Part Two

Well yesterday I said that I wanted a day with no drama and no boys. Today was that day!!! I didn't talk to that friend I sorta liked tho. But i did talk to the guy I used to like and caught no feelings:) *sigh* is this what tranquility feels like? cuz if it is I lllllllloooooovvvveeee it.!!! Lmao! But idk what to do with the friend I sorta liked thingy. Should I just ignore him more or just let it go cuz it sorta hurt my feelings even though it happened last year smh. But it's what ever. I'll get over it right? Hopefully. More tomorrow.!

August the 29th Part One

So today I think I'm going to just let everything come natural and be "open" and inviting. Hopefully everything will go smoothly.!:) More later.!!!

August the 28

Today wasn't all that great. I talked to a person that I used to have a major crush on in the past. I didn't feel much. So I was proud of that. But this thing with my sorta ex best friend is really bothering me like.. I don't know I can't believe that he actually did that. And my heart dropped when she told me. And I was jealous I never really told anyone but I was. And I've liked him for years. But it's whatever ill get over it:) hopefully:( but anyway. I talked to one of my friends she's not my best friend but shes still a friend and I value her opinion. She said that she didn't see me with those guys and she said she didn't see my friend with my other friend (confusing I know but accurate) lmao. I just need a day with no drama and no boys. Tomorrow is hopefully that day.

What You Expect

Sometimes when I am alone I think about the future and what it holds. The uncertainty in the pit of my stomach rests like a wade of gum that takes years to dissolve. The anticipations makes my heart go haywire. It's so scary to think that in less than two years my decisions are final and the blame would only rest upon my shoulders. A lot of times my parents give off pressure that they don't know they evoke with whispers on the phone that state my name and my goals. That's the scariest thing about growing. You know what your parents want and expect from me you but you don't know what you want and expect from yourself. Not really.

How to Be Happy

1. Remember. Try to remember positive things rather than negative.Its not a bad thing to be sad. It's just how you act with that emotion (i.e take it out on your friends, punch a wall, etc.). If you focus on things that make you happy most of the time your mood becomes uplifted. But if you dwell on a negative your mood remains an unhappy one.
2. Realize. No one is happy 100% of the time. It is unrealistic to believe that people stay upbeat all the time. If someone is always happy then they are unhealthy. Hiding emotions is a practice that will harm you in more ways then one. By realizing this, you will know when and how to react to different scenarios.
3. Smile. It has been proven in many studies that people who smile continuously become happy by doing so. 
4. Forgive. A lot of times when people are upset it because someone has done something that has dampened your mood.Holding on to negative emotions will only cause you act in a immature and unhealthy way.
5. Surroundings. Make friends that share your values and who are just as optimistic as you. If you do this you will notice that you are happier and get along more with the people you hang out with.
6. Have fun:). Do the things you love like watching TV, playing basketball, or shopping when you're down. Its guaranteed to make you smile:)

When You Would Notice Me

I sit in the front of the class with my glasses perched on my nose, my pencil gripped tightly in my hand, my face alert. Everyone else sits there talking and laughing.  If you where standing at the door of that class room you wouldn't notice me. You wouldn't notice my awkward tendency. You wouldn't notice my vibrant personality and feel how much I love the arts. You wouldn't notice the way I easily listen to others opinions and then accept theirs in the same breath. You would only notice me when I open my mouth and speak my bold words not caring if people agree. You would only notice when I quote movies from the early 50ths and sing them as if I were in them myself. You would only notice when I speak of Drake and John Mayer in the same sentence. You would only notice me when you look behind the glasses and see Jazzlyn Elaine Preston and you accept it. That's when you would notice me.